Goals for 2007

For some reason, 2007 doesn't sound like a "sexy" year (if years can be described as that), but you know what I mean. Just doesn't sound exciting, not like "2000" or "2010", haha ok I don't think I know what I mean. Anyway, here are my goals:

1. BE ON TIME. I don't think I've ever made it on time to any event in my life. ok maybe not, but arriving on time is a rarity; arriving early even more rare. And no more blaming my tardiness on my ethnicity; being "Asian" or "Chinese" or "part of CCF" doesn't justify anything (and this applies to math ability, musical talent [particularly the violin and piano]...but i don't have to worry about that since i possess none of those:)

2. ....

ok i think that's the only goal i have, woohoo! well there are probably more, but im too lazy to think of them. ok maybe that should be #2. 

2. DON'T BE LAZY. very self-explanatory. i believe we all have this goal in mind. but honestly, this can't be accomplished. well i guess it depends on what area of life like work, social, etc. hmm, yeah not accomplishable. but maybe im being too pessimistic. which leads to goal #3.

3. BE MORE OPTIMISTIC. the glass is always half-full. but then again, maybe one can be too optimistic, so maybe this shouldn't be a goal. what's wrong with seeing the world through rose-colored spectacles?

ok 2 and 3 are half goals, goals that we have that really can't be accomplished, or really just aren't goals, but a way of thinking to decrease the number of goals you'll have on your next new year's resolution. ok that works.

have a happy new year!

i heard a sermon today about how pain happens so that we may draw closer to God and how everyone, behind the "Sunday smiles", has some sort of wound that has or is currently affecting them. I never really thought about my wounds, haha or i guess it's not something that you really want to think about, but i'm beginning to realize how much my wound is still there. Actually it's more like a scar; the cut has healed, but has left a permanent mark. Actually, i'm not sure if the cut has healed, but ok, i'm positive about the mark. I never realized how much the way i think has been affected by this and how much of my insecurity stems from this. i take such pleasure in psychoanalyzing others, but always avoided it when it came to my own thoughts and emotions. well, not necessarily true, i'm enjoying the analyzing that i'm doing right now. 

insecurities are interesting little buggers; common to all man, and yet such a lonely struggle.

i feel rather odd posting such a dark (well at least it seems dark to me) entry. it doesn't really match my bright, starburst-like background, but oh well.

and im starting to like xanga. i see why people post now. haha a decade too late.

i was looking back through my xanga entries and just laughed! man, times have changed! haha i feel like someone else wrote all those entries, i mean that soooo doesn't sound like me...ok maybe it does. Isn't it weird how we're all changing but we don't really notice the change? I remember brushing my teeth one morning and feeling the sink counter against my lower stomach. I remember brushing my teeth like over a decade ago and feeling the counter against my chest. That thought sort of freaks me out because in like a decade from now, i could be like a completely different person, right?

It's so weird how things have sort of fallen into place...hopes and desires that we had then are just so completely different now and things that you absolutely did not expect to happen have...happened. But it all worked out. Life is strange, yet beautiful, that's all i can say, and above all God is good.

cool beans--remember how popular this term was back in the day!! i still don't understand what that really means...

You are a drumstick.

Absolutely insane. That is how most would describe you. You aren't afraid to take risks, and enjoy putting yourself in strange situations. Most people hang out with you because of your hilarious sense of humour. You light up any bad situation, and can help all of your friends with their problems, except for your own. Because of this, you enjoy being around people like you. Many shut you out for your very weird, random personality, but honestly, you shouldn't care.

Most compatible with: Guitar, and another drumstick.